Oh, the times I have wanted to quit! The times I HAVE quit!
When things just get too much, when anxiety turns up more and more often, our first response is to say “I give up!” I’m sure we’ve all been there at some point.
I have quit 2 jobs because of anxiety. I have given up on my self-esteem, my self-confidence, my social life, exercise and eating well in the past – all because of anxiety. And symptomatic of anxiety, an abundance of insecurities manifested within me! I was at the point of self-sabotage. I was sabotaging my family unit. All without intent.
And even though this was happening right before my very eyes, I still felt compelled to give up. Because to me, in my mind, there was no getting away from anxiety and its manifestations. What was the point in trying? I thought that was WHO I was. That it was my ‘personality’. But I KNEW deep down that wasn’t true.
A while back, I started a new project. It was an exciting venture that filled me with hope. I focussed on it a lot and it looked like it could be a beautiful breakthrough for me. But anxiety lurked in the corner, waiting to pounce.
It did. Because I wasn't as fully committed to beating it as I thought.
And so it wasn’t meant to be. Because I had no self-belief, no confidence and eventually I lost all motivation to see it through. I’d failed. I LET myself fail. Which made my already low self-worth, even lower.
I hit rock bottom and I gave up.
I gave up with myself, my career aspirations, my marriage.
Life circumstances most definitely have an impact on anxiety and how we see ourselves. But there has to be a turning point.
For me, the turning point came when I suffered disastrous consequences of my low self-worth.
Sometimes it takes something drastic to happen before we acknowledge how big an impact anxiety is having on our lives. Sometimes we don't even realise the damage we are doing to ourselves and those around us. Those we love.
I have been there, so I’m here to tell you NOT to wait.
It’s time NOW. To rediscover yourself before anxiety avalanches and suffocates you. It’s time to take stock of why you feel like you do. And then to implement small positive changes daily, so that they become good habits. (Have a read of my 8 daily rituals post for ideas).
Anxiety naturally takes a back seat when we aren’t so vulnerable. I'm not suggesting it will disappear for good - but it will lessen.
It’s time to look in the mirror and see yourself for who you truly are. Not just on the outside. What are you good at? What are you capable of achieving? What do you like about yourself?
Be honest with yourself. Be confident that you can achieve anything that you put your mind to. But most of all.. start loving yourself! Make a commitment to yourself. To dream, to believe and to achieve. To continue to slay anxiety like a boss! And – Do. Not. Quit.
Lotsa love, as always
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